Life of Single Gay Men (Gay Personal)

Gay Personal: Back with my ex

2007-04-30T15:17:00.000-07:00

Well I just reconciled with my ex. I missed him so much, and I decided to call him. He always told me that when I was ready to come back be it next week or 5 years from then that he would be there waiting for me. I've been thinking about him a lot. Worried about him, come to talk to him there was reason to be worried. He had bought a gun awhile back and planned on using it on himself. I couldn't live with myself if he had done that but besides that I WANT to be with him. It seems like he's grown up a lot, I hope it lasts. And I would like to commit to him to work things out, the biggest thing is that if we get mad at each other to be able to talk about it, not the silent treatment that's all I ask.

I would like a partner, my other concern is that I'm very busy right now in my life I have a lot going on and I hope that he's cool with the time I have to spend with him. But I'm not going to think to much just go with the flow. He was so happy to be with me and we just slipped back in the relationship and hit it off where we left off except without all the arguing and crap. He looks good too now. He's been working out, looks damn good.

And I wanted to fuck him so bad and so I did at first he didn't want to cause he was worried I just came over to fuck him and then I would move on but that's not what I want, I want it all. A partner with him a friendship, etc. Now I just have to get rid of the other guys that are around, if they want to be friends cool, if not then I'll move on but I will have friends this time around dammit. I will have friends and a relationship.

Gay Personal: How many Jay's are there?

2007-04-05T20:06:00.000-07:00

Why is it whether you're doing one of those gay phone lines or a gay chat room or gay online dating site, everyone's name is Jay? I mean really, how many Jay's are there out there. Come up with something original if you're going to use a fake name. I think one of the categories on those sites is how feminine are you? Rating from 1 being most feminine to 10 being masculine, I would say I'm an 8. I feel good about that. I wouldn't even count those fake macho leather men I mean they're off the scale. That's what I think.

Gay Personal: Farting

2007-04-05T08:26:00.000-07:00

When is it okay to fart in bed? You know you're dating someone and you get to know them but when do you have to stop getting up to excuse yourself and going into the bathroom and fart, when can you just let one rip?

And you know very well if you've bottomed the night before you're going to be full of gas so it's going to come out.

And you know what? I have a confession to make: I love the smell of my own fart, I love it! Sometimes I'll eat extra beans just to smell them, I don't do it in public only when I'm home. That and sometimes I'll rub my crotch and smell the sweat, smells good. Though I don't want to smell anyone else's.

Gay Personal: Pre-Cumming is so nasty

2007-04-04T11:28:00.000-07:00

I mean it's cool to see a guy getting excited about you so much he pre-cums but if he's a pre-cum waterfall, it's just gross you know. I don't want to see that and with so many diseases out there I certainly don't want to taste that. There's no way in hell that I'm going to let someone cum in my mouth. I did that once with my ex boyfriend and it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be but a perfect stranger? Forget it! It's so hard to have sex with someone and constantly be worrying about if they have some nasty disease. I swear to God if there weren't any diseases out there then I would be a total whore just like the 70s.

Single Gay Men: (Gay Personal) Wash Yo' Ass

2007-04-04T10:27:00.000-07:00

Now cover your virgin ears if you're easily offened cause I'm about to talk about the realities of gay sex.

Just a word of advice for you bottoms out there, or those thinking about being bottoms. Please WASH YO' ASS!

Nothing's worse than smelling or seeing someone's dirty ass. There's no way in hell I'm going to eat that ass if I smell even a twinge of dirty ass. Clean yourself man. And if I see it, forget it. Although with my ex boyfriend I saw my fair amount of dirty ass and it didn't bother me after awhile but other than that please clean that dirty ass. We should start giving lessons on how to clean your ass to young gay men so they know and perhaps they'll carry the traditions on to younger generations.

WASH YO' ASS!

Single Gay Men: (Gay Personal) The fucker gave me a sore throat!

2007-04-04T10:11:00.000-07:00

So I'm home with a sore throat and I swear to God it's cause of the guy I made out with the other day. I don't seem to have swollen glands on the outside but it's just in pain. I pray to God I don't have ghonera of the throat or something from him. But I didn't suck his cock for that long.

I don't know where else I could have got it. I wash my hands all the time. But I haven't been drinking my juice or water as much, maybe that's it. Well, anyway it gives me a chance not to be at work. And I'll take another day off if I'm not feeling well tomorrow too. Hurray!

I've got some shit to do anyway which includes buying a birthday present for my self-absorbed "performer" friend Peter. Peter is an over-the-hill white boy (who has a nice cock by the way) but knows it's time to stop performing, he really is in need of a face lift, well maybe not so much that as he need some work done on his puffy eyes and a "refresher". But I love him to death but he's so self-absorbed and after talking about himself and his problems (no matter what you're going through) for about an hour you'd be lucky to get in 3 minutes before he suddenly "has to go." He's self-absorbed maybe it comes with the territory of being a "performer".

Single Gay Men: (Gay Personal) 10 inch dicks

2007-04-04T03:33:00.000-07:00

Why is it people find the need to lie on their online dating profiles? Why say you have a 10 inch cock when you know very well you have a 7 inch. You know once you get the dude in bed with you he's going to find out and he's going to be pissed. why say you're 5'9 when you're 5'4 or why say you weigh 170 pounds when you know your fat ass weighs 250. Just be honest. Here's the deal, here's how I look at it, there's someone out there for everyone and if you lie on your profile you could be missing out on someone who is looking for someone just like you.

You know I never try to "make a good impression" when I go out on a date. I'm me, charming imperfect me, they either like me or they don't. However, I will say that my mami taught me well, clean the place up before anyone comes over. (God forbid anyone opens my walk in closet and gets hit by an avalanche of dirty clothes I haven't washed in weeks).

Single Gay Men: (Gay Personal) Yep, I was molested

2007-04-03T23:27:00.000-07:00

Yep when I was in the 4th grade I was molested. Who wasn't really? People ask if you weren't molested would you have been gay? In my case yeah cause since I was 6 years old I fantasized about being with guys and at that time I had crushes on girls too.

Even now there's times when I find myself looking at girls and their smooth legs or if they have a nice ass or whatever but I know what I'm comfortable with.

I wonder how many gay guys have been molested and how many had father's absent in their lives and if that has anything to do with someone "becoming" gay. Or are they like me and pretty much no matter what happened their life they would have turned out that way anyway.

Yeah, I was a stereotypical momma's boy. Aren't all gay men close to their mothers? I would be closer to my mom now if I could talk to her about what life is like for me being a single gay guy. But not ready for that. Not yet.

Single Gay Men: (Gay Personal) Do you have HIV?

2007-04-03T23:18:00.000-07:00

I don't have a problem with people with HIV, not at all but what I do have a problem is when you go out with someone for 3 months, have sex with them for that long and then all of the sudden you get a phone call and they tell you, "Hey and by the way I've been HIV positive for the past 6 years."

That's just not cool at all. Recently I met this really great guy who did the same thing after we have kissed (which I know you can't get HIV from kissing someone) and something told me he had HIV even though his profile online said he was negative. I can always tell when someone has HIV, I can see it in their eyes. I don't know how to explain it I just psychically can tell.

Anyway, had the first guy been honest with me like the second guy was I would probably still be dating him but I don't care how hard it is to tell someone that, it's not cool when you put someone else's life at risk just cause you want to get off or cause you're scared they'll reject you. Don't wear a t-shirt that says "I have HIV" but if you're going to progress to the sexual level in a relationship that's something you should disclose. Don't you think?

One guy said well why should I be the one who asks just cause I have HIV isn't it their responsibility to ask if I have it? Well, why should they ask if you have in your profile that you're negative. That's an outright lie.

Look, I can't imagine the shame and everything else that must go along with having that but it's not right to not be honest with someone.

And shit I still like the second guy who has HIV a lot. I don't care if he has it or not, I still would love to date him and I'd love to fuck that bubble butt ass as well. I swear to God he has THE best ass I've ever seen in my life and I thought I had a great ass.

Single Gay Men: (Gay Personal) I'm in love with my best friend

2007-04-03T23:06:00.000-07:00

My best friend is straight and he is so fucking hot. He knows I'm gay of course but God damn and he had the nerve to show me a picture of his ass. Some people might think he's gay cause of his mannerisms etc but he loves himself some pussy. I've fantasized about fucking him and him fucking me. I used to think to myself "Daniel, let's just fuck and get it out of the way." but I know that would make our relationship weird. And I think if he were honest with himself he's always been curious about fucking me too so let's just do it dude.

I think my dad is bisexual too. He told me he went to a gay bar a few times with his lesbian friends. I was shocked he told me that. I think my stepdad is bi too and maybe even my mom and my sister and hell why not throw in my brother too while we're at it. Shit everyone's either gay or bi really. I believe if society and the bible said it was all right to be yourself then everyone would be bi or gay and maybe 10% of people would be completely heterosexual.

Who knows? Maybe that's just horney-me talking.

Single Gay Men: (Gay Personal) Asian Men

2007-04-03T23:00:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry but I'm just not into Asian men, now I know friends of mine that are totally into them but they just don't do anything for me. I might admire their body, maybe their skin color but I just haven't been attracted to anyone. There have been a couple that are half-white that are kind of hot and then again there's this hot little Filipino guy at work who I'd love to fuck. And then I do love all those hot Hawaiian men. I guess maybe I am into Asian men.

I don't like it when older men fly to Thailand and fuck those boys that is so wrong. But I've often fantasized about going to South America and picking up one of those 16 or 17 year old bottom boys and well ... I know it's so wrong I shouldn't talk like that but it's true. And if you're honest, come on now be real with yourself. I used to fantasize about making love to my mother, so wrong and disgusting I know and having my dad fuck me was a hot thought to. So wrong I know. And I'm so in love with my uncle Kenny. That man is so incredible hot and has the most beautiful green eyes, I'd love an evening with him.

OK so I've just let out most of my skeletons. Jejejeje

Single Gay Men: (Gay Personal) Calling in for work

2007-04-03T22:53:00.000-07:00

Now I really don't feel like going into work this morning so I've been practicing my "Nancy, I don't feel well enough to go into work" speech, and I'm going to call her first thing in the morning before I've spoken a word so I sound really groggy and awful and I already wrote a list of my symptoms I had today so I won't forget them.

And besides if I go in there sick today I'll infect everyone which will just make everyone sick and if I go there without feeling well then I'll get worse which means I'll have to take more days off from work.

I feel bad cause they probably need me tomorrow but OH WELL, taking care of me first is my priority and besides she really pissed me off the other day cause she didn't let me go home early when it was clear we were over-staffed and there were no guests there. So there dammit!

Single Gay Men: (Gay Personal) Latino Men Stay Away

2007-04-03T21:28:00.000-07:00

Why does it seem all Latin men are so fucking dramatic? (And I can say that cause I am Latin) they're all jealous and controlling and it's cool for them to fuck around but God forbid you go out with your friends and they start accusing you of shit.

Growing up in a Latino house wasn't easy and I guess seeing a normal day in the life of your mother and father was like watching an episode of a Telenovela pretty much. No wonder why so many men say "No more Latin men". single gay men, south beach

But I guess we're just passionate about shit and maybe we take things to extremes. We're very sensitive and full of egotistical pride and project machoism to cover our ass and cover up the fact that we're sensitive little fucks.

Anyway, there's got to be a nice Latin guy that is mature and calm yet still passionate in all the right places. single gay men, south beach

There's one friend of mine name Ricky who I have a big crush on and he has a crush on me and on one of my "breaks" with my ex, we kissed cause we were both curious about each other. But nothing, no passion, nothing. Cute as fuck guy, if only there was that chemistry there. He'd be perfect for me, except for one thing he's a total flake and if there's one thing I can't stand it's someone who says they're going to do something and doesn't do it. single gay men, south beach

Single Gay Men: (Gay Personal) Coming out to your family

2007-04-03T21:22:00.000-07:00

So you might as well know my family doesn't know about me, there's a reason I live thousands of miles away from them and that's cause I want to live my life freely without being judged. Now my sister I came out to just a few months ago and shit sure my family might "wonder" but they don't know cause I haven't confirmed it but I'd like to tell them really soon cause I'm tired of not being able to talk about my life and a big part of my life is my relationships. single gay men, south beach

I find myself getting off the phone as soon as I can when talking to my mother cause I don't want her to start asking me if I'm seeing anybody. Then I'll have to lie cause I don't want to tell her about me being gay. And everyone who knows me knows I hate lying, it's just not who I am. I'm used to be being very upfront about everything. single gay men, south beach

But I feel it, this is probably the year. Telling my sister was a big thing, telling my dad and my brother will be next cause they're so open minded but my mom? We'll see ... single gay men, south beach

Single Gay Men: (Gay Personal) Gay Names

2007-04-03T21:17:00.000-07:00

Why is it so many gay men are named: John, then of course there's Richard, Dave, how many gay names can you come up with? single gay men, south beach

How many stereotypes are true, sure there are always people that break stereotypes some purposely just so they don't get that "fag" label and others naturally that aren't like that. single gay men, south beach

What do they say about us besides the fact that we swing from chandeliers? Let's see we all love Judy Garland, Cher, Whitney Houston, disco music, taking it up the ass, watching men in tight pants, wear glossy lipstick, have a lisp, love sex in the city, say "girlfriend", are flamboyant, what else? So many things they say about us, how many of those things are true, how many of those things are completely false and how many of those things are pretty much true? single gay men, south beach

Single Gay Men: (Gay Personal) Hating Yourself

2007-04-03T21:09:00.000-07:00

Why is that the most queeny guys or the guys with the most obvious lisps hate "feminine guys"? They say, "Why can't they be a real man?" Well, hello take a good fucking look at yourself, have you gone a week without plucking your eye brows, buck up Mary. single gay men, south beach

Self-hatred. So many gay guys can't stand drag queens or make fun of them and they think if they wear a baseball cap and maybe even some hip hop clothes no body will notice their swishing ass and if they throw in a little, "Yeah man" "fuck dude" that somehow that masks their non-masculine speech patterns and mannerisms.

Get over it, if you're truly masculine you are, if you're feminine you are, if you're somewhere in between be cool with it. You are who you are, love yourself then you won't need to put other people down.

Gay men have so much self-hatred in them. We're taught you're not a man if you like men or if you express your feelings but in my mind there's a lot more to being a man than whether you fix cars or watch football on Monday nights. Being a man has more to do with who you are as a human being. single gay men, south beach

Get comfortable with yourself boys.

I have this friend named Jerry who God bless him you could spot this sister a mile away but she seems to think that just cause she likes sports and is from Chicago and watches the superbowl every year that somehow she is not fem. Get with it sister, there's more S's from you than a snake pit. Too many S's.

Which I don't have a problem with, I just have a problem with people then turning around making fun of some poor queen that walked by. Whatever. That's my bitch for today. single gay men, south beach

I have a sore throat so I think I'll use that as an excuse to call in sick tomorrow. I need my beauty rest anyway.

Single Gay Men: (Gay Personal) That's more like it

2007-04-03T20:37:00.000-07:00

So I went out on this date with this sexy, mature, salt & pepper haired man name Robert (from work) technically speaking it's probably not a good idea for us to go out because he is on the same level as my manager and runs a whole department but I couldn't help myself.

We agreed to keep everything on the down low, it wouldn't be good for us to be seen by anyone from work. single gay men, south beach

He's funny, he's educated, he's flirtatious and has sexuality exuding. He's also very vulnerable and behind the secure, confident facade is just this guy that wants to connect with someone special.

We talked about everything from where he's from, Mexico. His past relationships, of which he's fallen in love twice and he's not perfect, which is good cause I don't like a perfect guy. He's just real cool. single gay men, south beach

I walked him home but we just hugged goodnight and he kissed me on the cheek (and I understand he doesn't want rumors spread)

Well, during the whole date my phone was constantly blowing up which he was totally understanding about and I didn't want to be rude so I didn't answer it except once for a very important call. Anyway, on the way home I checked my voices and I got a message from a work mate "Calvin, I saw you walking with Robert. What's up?" single gay men, south beach

Single Gay Men: (Gay Personal) Oh hell no!

2007-04-03T20:25:00.000-07:00

So I went on this date tonight and shit I had nothing better to do, and yeah it was online dating again and the guy had a little weight on him which doesn't bother me cause i like 'em with a little meat on their bones but within 30 seconds I knew "this was not going to work" single gay men, south beach

First of all within 2 minutes of us sitting down he started talking about how he beat up his ex for cheating on him, come to find out later that he didn't actually cheat on him he was only talking to someone else on the phone.

Issues and more issues. I mean we talked pretty freely and I thought okay well this guy can be a friend, but then he insulted me toward the end of the evening acting as if I was stupid just cause I didn't know what the hell he was talking about. single gay men, south beach

Oh hell no. I went through that with my ex. This guy was very insecure, so that's a big turn off. I like guys who are comfortable in their own skin. And this motherfucker definitely wasn't.

And how in the hell can you be that fat and still have a flat ass? I like my man to have a nice bubble butt.

We met for coffee and I knew it wasn't going to work in the first place cause last week when we started talking on the phone he was like calling every day and that's just not going to work unless there's chemistry and there wasn't and I was forgiving of it cause man he's an Aries and I know they have a lot of energy. And I get along really well with Aries but mother-fucker no.

He bought me a nice grande mocha and if he thinks that he's going to get me in bed cause he bought me a cup of coffee forget it. I just shook his hand and gave him a hug. He offered to drop me off but I lived right around the corner and "preferred to walk". So of course I could tell he took that personally. And why the hell not? single gay men, south beach

Too many issues, not a chance in hell to be in a relationship with me. Now had he been sexy as fuck we would have at least fucked but he turned me off so bad. Next!

Single Gay Men: (Gay Personal) there's this guy at work

2007-03-31T06:51:00.000-07:00

So there's this guy at work named Gustav from Denmark and to me he's very sexy. Tall, shaved head, dark eyes but unfortuanately he's supposedly "straight" he's actually very homophobic. Which to me is the first sign someone is gay. Well, he's homophobic except that he's always biting his lip everytime he looks at my ass and he's grabbed it and I've shown my ass to him and he says it's like mocha pudding. single gay men, south beach

But he's afraid, I hate people that are ruled by fear. Drives me crazy. He says I should be more discreet, and it's not like I'm flaming by any means and any little grabby-grabby I do when no body is around or I do it so quick no body can see me. That's part of the fun of it. single gay men, south beach

I can't stand being around people that are always worried about shit. Get over it. That said, he's one of the few guys I'd love to fuck me. Usually I like to top but some guys something about them makes me want to bottom. Besides, I like the idea of being his first (as far as I know). It kind of turns me on. single gay men, south beach

Single Gay Men: (Gay Personal) So I finally got some ass

2007-03-31T06:42:00.000-07:00

So after two months of not having sex, I finally got some ass. Boring! I mean first of all I met this guy online. We clicked on the phone but when I met him he was on a rampage after having a rough day. He has buck teeth that look like they don't get brushed or flossed regularly, he doesn't listen well. Meaning he cuts me off when I'm speaking (which I didn't speak much cause he was doing so much talking) and he's kinda cute, I've seen better. I don't even care how cute a guy is as long as the personality matches. single gay men, south beach

So let's cut to the chase. We went to his place and he was obviously horny, playing with my hand etc. and granted I did fuck his ass and he really got into it but I found myself bored by him. He had cigarette breath which I hate. And he didn't kiss the way I like to kiss, I like a guy with thick juicy lips which he didn't have.

So it was sort of a sympathy fuck really, I just needed to have sex with someone, I get tired of jacking off. And he got off but I didn't. I last forever. single gay men, south beach

We used protection of course but I always leave having sex with someone wondering if some how I picked up something from someone like herpes or whatever.

Granted you wouldn't be a gay man if you hadn't gotten at least one STD in your life and honey I've had my share: ghonorea, crabs, HPV, what else. Praise God nothing more serious than that. But yeah I play safe especially now. I swear if there wasn't any diseases out there I totally would be a fucking whore. single gay men, south beach

Single Gay Men: (Gay Personal) So this is a blog eh?

2007-03-28T14:29:00.000-07:00

So this is a blog, eh? This is where I will pour my heart out with no holds bar. And rip on people and gossip and get all my frustrations out because I haven't had sex in like forever since breaking up with my boyfriend so I might as well get my frustrations out one way or another. single gay men, south beach

So I'm single now for the first time in a long time and it's scary out there in the world. I hate going to the fucking shitty night clubs in South Beach, same old people. Just worn out guys in their late 30s and 40s with muscle shirts and wrinkled skin trying to dress like they're still 20 which they're not. And they look at me like I'm a piece of meat and wonder why I won't walk up to them and that's because they look like worn out old hogs. Look I like a distinguished older gentleman like the rest of them but these are guys that you know partied way to hard when they were in their 20s and now it's showing up on their skin. And no spa in America can do them any justice.

I just got home from work. I work in the hospitality business - of course doesn't every gay man in South Beach (such a gay business). I hate my job. I mean it's all right, for a job but there's gotta be something better out there for me. single gay men, south beach

I work with a bunch of two-faced Latins and I can say that because I am Latin but fuck man I'm American. And I've heard so many accents since I moved here 3 years ago that I'm shocked when I run into an actual white person.

So anyway, forget about the clubs. I've been trying out this online dating shit. God that's a trip, 4 times, 4 times I tell you I've tried to hook up there and all 4 times they flake. Forget it. But something keeps drawing me to the site like a drug and I keep looking. It really is like flipping through a catalog for a boyfriend. Though I'm not looking for one, my friends say I should live a lone for awhile, blah blah blah I want to get laid and yet part of me won't hook up with anyone cause I want the possibility that it could be more and what I've been seeing so far hasn't been that appealing. single gay men, south beach

I dont' want to sound like one of those bitter nasty old bitches. I really am a happy go lucky guy but since this is my bitch blog you'll just have to put up with my bitching.

Signing off ...