Gay Personal: Back with my ex

Well I just reconciled with my ex. I missed him so much, and I decided to call him. He always told me that when I was ready to come back be it next week or 5 years from then that he would be there waiting for me. I've been thinking about him a lot. Worried about him, come to talk to him there was reason to be worried. He had bought a gun awhile back and planned on using it on himself. I couldn't live with myself if he had done that but besides that I WANT to be with him. It seems like he's grown up a lot, I hope it lasts. And I would like to commit to him to work things out, the biggest thing is that if we get mad at each other to be able to talk about it, not the silent treatment that's all I ask.

I would like a partner, my other concern is that I'm very busy right now in my life I have a lot going on and I hope that he's cool with the time I have to spend with him. But I'm not going to think to much just go with the flow. He was so happy to be with me and we just slipped back in the relationship and hit it off where we left off except without all the arguing and crap. He looks good too now. He's been working out, looks damn good.

And I wanted to fuck him so bad and so I did at first he didn't want to cause he was worried I just came over to fuck him and then I would move on but that's not what I want, I want it all. A partner with him a friendship, etc. Now I just have to get rid of the other guys that are around, if they want to be friends cool, if not then I'll move on but I will have friends this time around dammit. I will have friends and a relationship.